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I don't recognize myself

August 31st, 2010 at 07:01 pm

I lost about 10 lbs while in the hospital, mostly in my face and upper body. When I look in the mirror I don't recognize myself because so much weight is gone from my face. It's very weird and disconcerting. I wanted to lose weight, but not exactly this way.

I went to see my gallbladder Dr yesterday. According to her they took the gallbladder about 3 days into my coma. They based the decision on elevated liver enzymes and my blood pressure falling. She said it was a good thing they did because when she took it out, it was infected and would have failed shortly. Everything is fine with that now, but she said I had Kidney cancer. I said that was the first anyone had come right out and said that. I had been told it could be and they weren't sure, basically I had a mass on my kidney and they didn't know what it was. She started back-tracking and saying well it is a mass, it doesn't say it's cancer. So I don't know. I have an appt with the kidney dr next Wednesday and will hopefully know for sure then. And hopefully it's not cancer. My mom started freaking out when she heard, she's a worrier and always thinks the most negative way first. I try not to worry until I know I have something to worry about, since I think that's a waste of energy and just makes you feel bad. I'm remaining optimistic until I know for sure what the diagnosis is.

The gallbladder dr was impressed by mom in the hospital. She thought she was wonderful and she was. There everyday and helping me however she could. The same with my dad. I definetly would have had a much harder time if they didn't live near and could help me.

I finished reading the library book 61 hours by Lee Childs. Mystery - pretty good.

9 Responses to “I don't recognize myself”

  1. My English Castle Says:

    Sending all our best wishes for a good diagnosis and a speedy recovery!

  2. creditcardfree Says:

    ((Hugs)) Take care of yourself and believe you will regardless of the diagnosis. Your parents sound like mine...they are a blessing!!

  3. Says:

    Hope you get better soon!

  4. scottish girl Says:

    Hope you get better soon Smile

  5. ceejay74 Says:

    So glad your parents were there for you. It's so important to have good advocates while you're in a hospital where you might be unconscious or out of it! I had my dad with me after a serious car accident, and my partners with me during my labor and C-section delivery. They were all priceless protectors and I owe them for the rest of my life!

  6. pretty cheap jewelry Says:

    such a good strong point of view - worry is not productive!! that needs to be written on my bathroom mirror in red lipstick.

  7. Analise Says:

    I admire your philosophy about worrying... a positive attitude is a wonderful virtue. I wish I could be more like that. Best wishes regarding the kidney issue.

  8. Waterfall Says:

    Whether it is the worst or not, it will be good to get the mass off your kidney. With so many advancements in that kind of treatment these days, I'm sure you're in good hands.

  9. Patricia Lawrence Says:

    I'm so glad you are better. Hopefully things will be ok in the future. I have read your entire blog and admire you and your lifestyle. Good luck!

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