hurried home from work today so I could sneak in a 30 min walk before dark.

Went to Taco Bell for supper and spent $6.17

Total spent so far this month = $187.95

I sold a brand new set of McGuffey readers on half.com for $25 today. I'm not even sure why I own these books except for the fact that I expressed some curiosity about them one time and the next thing I knew my mom bought me the set for xmas one year.

I couldn't sleep last night, my brain was going a 100 mph regarding work. Whenever I run into a problem it just loops in my head trying to think of solutions. I keep a pad of paper and pencil by my bed and write the ideas down for solving the problem down just so I can get them out of my head. I was so tired today. I got up an hour early and went into work early. There's no sense fighting it. I just wish I could find the off button when I have those kinds of night

My grandfather is very ill right now. He's 87 years old and has been ill all year. They called hospice in today so you know it's close to the end. He's in so much pain and he really doesn't know anyone right now, it would be a blessing for him to go. Everyone is reconciled to the fact that he will die soon and while it's not our wish it's what's best for him.

When people get terminally ill you always hear talk about their quality of life deteriorating, what people don't realize is that it's not just the quality of life of the ill person that deteriorates, it's the quality of life of their family members also. No one in the family regrets the amount of time or money it's taking to take care of him, but it is a fact that it's a strain on their families. There are 5 sisters and they take turns taking care of him, naturally the ones who live closest spend the largest amount of time looking after both of my grandparents. This causes guilt for the other sisters because they feel that they aren't doing their share. It's just bad for everyone and causes a lot of stress.